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   As I placed the barrel of the gun in my mouth. With shaky hands I tried my best to get a steady shot. I had to make this count. Though my breaths were quick and my heart race was going a very fast pace. I was tired of being scared. I can't think of what brought me here anymore and I can't let it stop me now. No one would benefit from my existence. Not anymore they wouldn't. I closed my eyes and finally swallowed everything. I pulled the trigger, yet I was still alive. The chamber had not been filled. In all of my panic and frustration, I had forgotten to load the chamber. Ironic isn't it? A "legendary hero" such as myself forgetting to load a gun. Heh.
   I tried to comprehend what had just happened. Breathing quick on my knees still hands clutched in the grass below me. I grasped for more air.
   Then I herd a voice. "That is right, it isn't your time just yet."
   Quickly I summoned the strength to stand and met this man only find a gun in his hands. I loaded the one I had just tried to use to end my life and was ready. He walked and pointed his gun at me and I the same to him. Then he dropped his and the next thing I know he rushes to me and disarms me only to embrace me. In a soft voice he told me. "Let it go, my son."
   This man then spoke of the truth I had been seeking and ones of regrets and the lies that were told. He also told me the virus had been overcome by a new one inside me and no longer was I a walking epidemic. I could live my life now, the future I didn't even know if I wanted. He told me the world ends with this death. He was the last of the cause of such ruin and despair. After ending where it started. Zero had been erased and now a new age could begin.
   As this man slowly began to die because of similar virus inside of him, I lit him one last cigar and stayed by his side. In his dying breath. So much regret and sadness laid in his departure. Mistakes he wishes he could fix...lives to take back. He said with his final breath, knowing that with his death it all ends and a new age of peace can begin in the world: "This is good, isn't it?"



[ A little something I felt like writing. I left details out on purpose. if you read this and understand where this is from well then that is great. I wanted to a perspective on the main character. his thoughts and feelings. Hope this as worth a read. ]

I have been away for some time, have no idea why but hopefully I will be back now and ready to add more of my art along with some journals. 

For all the favs and comments. They all mean alot. I love and appreciate everyone of them and will use the to improve even more. Please keep telling me what you think! I will do the same.

Well, the feeling of being left behind sure does suck.

Art is a lifestyle that can not be taken so seriously. I believe you should be having fun with whatever art you are performing. Dancing, Acting, Drawing, Writing ect. All of these and more are things people do to express themselves. It is sad that some people look down upon this and discriminate just because of some very stupid reasons.
We are all human and seek a way to express pain, happiness, and sorrow. However we do that is a God given right. We don't need anyone telling us how to express and live our lives. If expressing yourself is running naked around your house, then by god just make sure you have your thing protected at least. But just do what you wanna do!
Art is an amazing way of expressing yourself and EVERYONE does it, some just don't know it yet.

Art Is Amazing