BigBossPatriot1885

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Leave the lights off by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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Leave the lights off

Can I tell you something or will my heart be too much to take? Can you accept who I am or say I am nothing more than a mistake? Will you hold my hand in sorrow and let me deal the pain? or will you shut me out at the last second and say I am nothing more than a stain? you see I am afraid to turn on the lights. I don't want to see who I am. My true colors would show, you wouldnt be able to stand. Least that is what I think, because of my past. Been beaten up for what I have done. I have been called an ass. Though I try so hard to be right and do believe I am at best. I have given my all and taken the fall. maybe I should just rest.

There isnt anything I wouldnt do by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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There isnt anything I wouldnt do

I'll be looking over you Untill I have no more strength. Out of the shadows, Out of deaths embrace. Protection will be vile And you wont have to deal with pain. I will take it all and then some, Thoughts and wishes in my brain. I can not see you at all. But I can feel the pain. Please never forget me Because without you I cant breath at all... Stay forever close and never leave my side Remain with me and forever I can finally Die Happy If you cant reach... Just call out my name.. And if you cant speak.. I can read your heart.. I can not see you The pain englufs my soul Please never forget me Without you I cant breath at all.. Stay forev

I Need You by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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I Need You

I need you And cradle everything you are I need you Like astronomers need the stars I need you Like taxi drivers needs their cars I need you So please, tell me how far How far I must walk. How far I must go. To be where you are. Stand toe to toe. Hold you tight in my arms. Never to let go. Tell me how far. I have to go To kiss your gentle lips And how much to show. Show you how much I need you. To never let you go. Show you how much this is true. I need you. I need you Like humans need air. I need you Like children need love and care. I need you. So please, tell me how many stairs. How far I must climb. To be where you are. To show you how

So, Is It Worth It? by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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So, Is It Worth It?

Y'know it really is funny when you think, About all the time think. Think about her and how I couldnt live without it. But all in the end, it turns out to be shit Leaving you feeling worthless and pointless. Its funny when you think about it. The mind gets over it quick but the heart stays the same. Feeling the same emotions that brought about shame. Constantly reminding you why you ran away Ran away to escape the shadow of that day. The day that made you feel all that shame. You have someone new on your mind. Never able to get them out no matter how hard you try. But then you always wonder, stop and think Does she even feel the same way? I

Control by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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Control

How quickly life seems to change Once stood with steady feet and now you yourself is the one you blame Hating no one but God for all that has done Rotting flesh lies with this confrontation The arms reach out and seek what they must To enslave a new one that has gone to hush I understand now why this had to happen So now you take the blame The unfair reality was too much As the monster began to change Those responsible have never felt so alive Kept it in so long, everyday is a lie Broken skin and washed up hands You have never seemed so broken but I still understand Revenge must quench its thirst It must seek out to find Find the monste

Hail To The King Baby by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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Hail To The King Baby

Young and full of life Though with plenty of experience, Through hardship and strife Nothing can get by her more Then an opportunity to settle the score Her brain is full of ideas And she write what she feels in her heart No holding back with these scars She has been doing this from the start You think you may know her. But you would be wrong First glace and think this one is weak But she is frighteningly strong Mindset of a women who has felt pain She only wished to be loved. Sometimes she may but never herd an answer From someone way up above Expresses herself in a way she only knows how She hardly thinks of the future. She lives for th

Can you forgive me? by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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Can you forgive me?

Please forgive me For I have done you wrong My mind drifted away carelessly Without a care for you at all Felt as if I was right I kept holding onto myself So tight I drowned in myself to leave strife Yet now look at the cause Can you forgive me? Can you forgive me? I kept scratching at my past The pieces seems to fall into place I kept trying to become that one Only to fall in disgrace The actions I've done Can you forgive me? Can you forgive me? If you can hear me Just give me a sign I need to know if you are listening I need to know if you are fine Is there any contact? Any remorse? I tried so hard And it blew up in my face I kept the

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Leave the lights off by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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Leave the lights off

There isnt anything I wouldnt do by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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There isnt anything I wouldnt do

I Need You by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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I Need You

So, Is It Worth It? by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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So, Is It Worth It?

Control by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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Control

Hail To The King Baby by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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Hail To The King Baby

Can you forgive me? by BigBossPatriot1885, literature

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Can you forgive me?

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I Hadn't Known ''Hurt'' Until the Now. by WhereICallHome, literature

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I Hadn't Known ''Hurt'' Until the Now.

How am I to know what we, he did? Was it my fault? Am I to blame? Or was this actually violation and incrimination…? He broke through the surface and watched me bleed… Did he not see the tears spilling from my eyes? Oh Heavenly God, where am I supposed to turn? I don’t even understand what has happened, and what is happening… The filth is permanent. I swear it will never go away. I need someone to swoop down and hold me close. I need them to tell me “It’ll be okay” but mean it in a way that I know no harm is coming my way. Will harm come my way again?

Us by xxnefariousxx, literature

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Us

Year One. They meet. Completely coincidental. But always one-hundred percent on purpose. Fate. She smiles. He fidgets. Attraction. Year Two. Friends. He is the boy down the street and she is the girl next door. Literally. He makes her laugh. She makes him vulnerable. Year Three. Still friends. The best of friends. He tells her secrets and she feels safe with him. She thinks he is charming. He thinks she is beautiful. Year Four. He tells her he loves her. She tells him she loves him too. He is smitten. She is so happy. They are the definition of Teenage Love. Year Five. Growing pains. He makes mistakes. And she cries. And cries. An

Speechless by ranza123, literature

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Speechless

How the hell can I make You See that everything you say Everything you do Hurts me And although I’m not perfect Neither Are You And I am trying And trying To find some sense of Worth But you’re making it Pretty damn difficult And I realize there’s Nothing I can say to get through to you Because nothing has worked yet And all I want is T

The Kiss by madcat133, literature

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The Kiss

The kiss of life, of love, or of Death? She swoons in your embrace- Grasping your golden hand so delicately Or perhaps your kiss brings death Her grasp is her one last effort To prevent the life from being sucked from her floral form Perhaps you are autumn- Your bronze and golden tones Threaten to kill her bodily blooms Or could you be winter instead? Your black blocks of icy demise Come to life again with the kiss of Spring Her spirit awakens the dead soul underneath The ivy atop your head begins to grow again. Perhaps you aren’t dead or frigid at all Epiphany permits another image You are the sun and the frail creature is lifeless- Se

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Peace Out by BigBossPatriot1885, visual art

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Nov 8
United States
Deviant for 11 years
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I am a normal sensitive adult with a very caring personality. I have much to share and I hope many may enjoy my work.
I am a writer more than a drawer.
I enjoy metal music the most but I listen to just about anything. I enjoy anime among videogames and hanging out with friends. A normal teen/adult :)

Favourite Movies

Iron man, The Avengers, The blind side, The Green Mile, and many more

Favourite TV Shows

Family guy, Auction hunters, Hardcore Pawn, and many more

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Shadows Fall, Megadeth, All that Remains, Fear Factory, Shinedown, and many more

Favourite Books

Dragon Rider, Anime manga, and many more

Favourite Writers

Edgar Allen poe

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Assassins Creed, God of war, Metal Gear Solid, and many more

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Oct 13, 2013

A New World Of Peace

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    Centered in a grave yard with my mission complete and so many answered questions yet still so many unanswered ones, I knew my time was coming to an end. I was a walking epidemic. I am become death. A danger to everyone and everything around me. I was no good to anyone anymore. My usefulness was to come to a bitter end. The virus inside my body was not going to be the reaper though; I was.     As I placed the barrel of the gun in my mouth. With shaky hands I tried my best to get a steady shot. I had to make this count. Though my breaths were quick and my heart race was going a very fast pace. I was tired of being scared. I can't think of w

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BigBossPatriot1885

Oct 13, 2013

Hopefully Will Be Back

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I have been away for some time, have no idea why but hopefully I will be back now and ready to add more of my art along with some journals. To be honest I have been quite shy because I never though myself to be...great but I will suck it up and try. Thanks to those who have stuck with me this far.

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BigBossPatriot1885

Apr 10, 2013

Thanks everyone :)

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For all the favs and comments. They all mean alot. I love and appreciate everyone of them and will use the to improve even more. Please keep telling me what you think! I will do the same.